Living Untethered: Relinquishing Control to God

“O Jacob, how can you say the LORD does not see your troubles? O Israel, how can you say God ignores your rights? Have you never heard? Have you never understood? The LORD is the everlasting God, the Creator of all the earth. He never grows weak or weary. No one can measure the depths of his understanding. He gives power to the weak and strength to the powerless. Even youths will become weak and tired, and young men will fall in exhaustion. But those who trust in the LORD will find new strength. They will soar high on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not faint.” (Isaiah 40:27–31, NLT) I do not transition easily. I was 3 years old when we moved from the farm to an acreage. That little bungalow remained home for me until I got married at the age of 22. My life was fairly predictable and steady. My sister married when I was 12 years old so, being the only other girl, I had a room to myself until I left for college. I never had a large circle

If you have not yet done so, please read The Story (see link on Home screen) before you begin reading my posts. It will give the backstory to this blog.   Since the writing of my introduction  my computer remained, for the most part, dormant. I could not write. I know I said that this adventure was going to be exciting and I boldly said that I was ‘all in’ but I was not prepared for just how ‘exiting’ it was going to be. Plus, I was (still am) quite frightened to write my blog for others to read. I did not have the strength to be that vulnerable. Since the writing of my introduction  my husband has taken the position Lead Pastor in a small town in south-central Alberta. I am once again married to a pastor which makes me a pastor’s wife. What about the tether that was thrown off? You know, the one called ‘pastor’s wife’? (see intro blog). Our home in central AB has not yet sold so we are renting a condo. I love it here. I have a beautiful office. I can walk to the grocery store

I’m getting tired of living month to month wondering how we are going to make ends meet. I would just like the pressure to be relieved. I would like ‘normal’ life to return. When my husband resigned from his last ministry position, we did not know how we were going to manage paying a mortgage while on Employment Insurance. Anyone who has ever gone on EI knows that it only pays 50% of the bills. Which 50% would we pay? The mortgage? The utilities and groceries? The vehicle maintenance and insurance? How would we survive without going into foreclosure? We knew we had obeyed God when he said it was time to relinquish our jobs. So, we trusted (well, we sort of trusted) that God would look after us. From September 1, 2018 until September 1, 2019 God paid our mortgage one month at a time. He met all our needs. We never went hungry or homeless. We did put our house on the market but with the downturn of the economy no one was/is buying houses in Central Alberta. So, w e lived in th