Gratitude
Yes,
they knew God, but they wouldn’t worship him as God or even give him thanks…their
minds became dark and confused…instead of worshiping the glorious, ever-living
God, they worshiped idols made to look like mere people, birds and animals and
snakes…so God let them go ahead…as a result they did vile things…they
deliberately chose to believe lies…God abandoned them to their shameful
desires…When they refused to acknowledge God…their lives became full of every
kind of wickedness, sin, greed, hate, envy, murder, fighting, deception,
malicious behaviour, and gossip…forever inventing new ways of sinning…they are
fully aware of God’s penalty for such behaviour but they go right ahead and do
them anyway…encouraging others to do the same… Romans 1:21 – 2:16
Give thanks…or else!
The above passage is not a ‘touchy-feely’
type of message. In fact it’s rather harsh. Sobering. It’s what happens when we
cease giving thanks. What about when life gets miserable? When we see injustice? When we
find ourselves up against a wall? When we are overwhelmed with grief? Surely
there must be some exceptions to this! Give thanks?
A few years ago (seems like yesterday)
my husband was preparing a sermon on worshipping God in the valley, when life
sucks and is just not any fun. We were also on the schedule to lead the singing
that morning so we selected songs that spoke to that. He gives and takes away,
blessed be the name of the Lord. When life is good give him thanks. When life
is rough, give him thanks. We had already experienced several traumatic losses
that year but really wanted people to know that God is good, ALL THE TIME. The
Saturday evening, before said sermon was to be preached, and worship songs to
be sung, I received a phone call that took me out at the knees. It was my mom.
“I have some very sad news. Lenore was killed in a car accident this morning.”
The rest of the conversation missed me.
My kids said all they heard was a wail of, “Oh no!!” Lenore is my cousin. We
have been close since we were born over 50 years ago. When she married David,
he and Tom hit it off. Our kids are good friends with their kids. We did
camping holidays together. She has just always been there, listening, loving,
caring, praying, laughing, and crying. It must be a mistake. Later that evening
her husband called and confirmed that indeed she was gone. And. Never. Coming. Back.
ARE YOU SERIOUS, GOD?!! Do you really expect us to get up in front of the
people tomorrow and worship you? To give thanks to you? This pain is too much,
Lord.
However, for us to have
cancelled our part in the service saying, “Our grief is too much, we just can’t
do it this morning”, would have been saying that God is not enough for this. (Please
bear in mind that it is definitely appropriate to take time off for grief and
trauma. This was our story for this specific event).
“No
matter what happens, always be thankful, for this is God’s will for you who
belong to Christ Jesus.”
1 Thessalonians 5:18 NLT
God had lead my husband to the right
topic at the right time. He had lead us to select those very specific songs. He
knew what was coming for us. I could hear him ask, “How serious are you about testifying to everyone else that God is
worthy of your worship when life sucks?”
We really had no choice. Refusing to
worship God and give him thanks is an act of anarchy. A lack of trust. Were the
songs true? Yes. Was the sermon true? Of course!! So through a veil of tears we
sang. My husband preached. Truer words were never spoken. Talk about a ‘sacrifice
of praise’. Talk about a real-life illustration. God is good. He is worthy of
our gratitude, our praise, our worship.
Don’t
worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need,
and thank him for all he has done. If you do this, you will experience
God’s peace, which is far more wonderful than the human mind can understand.
His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus. Philippians
4:6-7(emphasis mine).
Tell God what you need. I know as an
all-knowing God he already knows. But he loves to hear our voice. He loves it
when we finally get honest and let him know how we feel and what we need. It’s
a great way of letting him know that we recognize he is in charge and worthy of
our worship and praise; that he is our only hope.
That day I wanted to curl up in a little
ball until the pain went away. That day all I wanted was for my heart, which
was in many tiny little pieces, to be repaired and made whole again. That day I
chose to worship a God who deserves my praise no matter what life throws at me.
My people needed to see what it looks like when life is hard and we give thanks
to God anyway. And God is healing my heart a little at a time.
I’m sort of a pro-choice kind of person.
I used to tell my kids, “You can do this with a spanking or without a spanking,
you choose.” You don’t have to give thanks. But the end result of withholding
gratitude from our Maker, our good Father, is a deep dark slippery slope into a
place without God. Do you really want to risk that? Or, do you want to experience
God’s peace which is way beyond anything you can imagine? You choose.
SO good Connie.. thank you for digging into your pain to share it with us. I'm sure you revisited the rawness of that day to bring it out in this blog. It's an important reminder that God wants to process beside us- in it, with it, through it...indeed we are not left to suffer alone in the journey of grief and lament(◍•ᴗ•◍)❤
ReplyDeleteThank you. I could never have processed it without God's gentle arms around me.
DeleteAgain, a good reminder - obviously God knows I'm need a few gentle nudges from my good friend!! Gratitude in the midst of pain and discomfort. Don't deny the pain but somehow learn that both co-exist and importantly walk together. As I read through Bethany's Christmas post again this morning - it reminds of this reality - Mary had to walk through both to appreciate the whole picture of who her son was/is - the joy of his arrival and redemption but the pain and agony that was experienced to achieve that redemption. It really is an example of how to live because Christ himself also had to live that tension.
ReplyDeleteOh Alma, you are such an encouragement to me. You allow me to be who I am and to be totally honest. I am thankful for your friendship and for your gentle nudges to keep going.
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